Its never too late

FICTION

Its 2 a.m. in the part of world where I live,and I'm regretting my choice..

I work as an emergency specialist in the hospital,believe me is the worst job in the world..

You don't get to see the imagined rush or sainthood here..people mess up you see..mess up their freaking life and end up here.But lucky for them,they get to go outta here,either in wheelchairs or bodybags,but they get out.I'm terribly stuck,no way of getting out of this place..I m sick of seeing terribly sick people..Why couldn't I take plumbing as my line of work? I silently curse myself .It was all the same routine you see..you dont usually get a conscious patient here..As soon as patient gets out of danger,He gets transferred to the particular department  inpatient ward.Patients dont even recognise me as the one who saved their life because they dont know that I did it..I feel I've been betrayed of my rightful position..

I hear sound of siren.It graudually becomes louder,Hmm..one more case for me ,I start rubbing my eyes,getting ready to recieve the patient..I yawn twice or thrice and slowly move towards the recieving area.The ambulance stops near the entrance ,two paramedics get out in a hurry.

One of them comes to me and says, '911 call doctor,found the patient lying unconscious on floor ..'

Hmm..most probably a stroke or heart attack..I start thinking..'whats the pulse rate and bp?'       I ask 'pulse very feeble doc,bp not measurable ..' Well looks it might be a tough case to handle..

I casually open the door of ambulance and see the patient..I keep staring...

'Mom...????'

Suddenly there is an adrenaline rush in my body..I take her to my arms and look at her

she is sweaty..her lips blue..breathing is laborious, I try to get pulse but cant feel it..

I try to call the nurse but words wont come out of my mouth..

I recognise instantly that its a heart attack,suddenly my mind becomes clear..I start asking for nitroglycerine  but before i give it to her i need to confirm the diagnosis i hastily find the Ecg machine and try to fix the leads on her but I fail miserably..for the first time that is..

somehow  I fix the leads and get a reading ..It confirms my worst fears..out before my eyes is an ominous display of irregular wavy pattern of ecg recording indicating final cries of dying heart muscle..I try to calculate the amount of time i hav got to save her..most probably two minutes..two what?? 

Again I m in a frenzy..I try to get the nitroglycerine but as soon as I locate it mom's head turns to one side..again i rush to her and check her heartbeat..There is silence..I check it again..silence..

'Goddammit.....call crash cart..' I hear myself scream..

As it arrives in my mind plays visuals of my med classes..As soon as circulation stops cells start dying,first being the brain cells which die within three minutes..

'God..give me some more time........please..' I silently plead as I prepare the defibrillator..it gets charged in few seconds but those are the longest seconds in my life..as I put gel on the pads of defib machine I remember my childhood days and the beautiful face of my mother

'Charge full I clear you clear all clear...'I shout making sure nobody else gets hurt..Her body suddenly gets passively lifted up as electricity passes through her body.I dont have the courage to see the heart activity in ecg machine but somehow I find the courage to look up..

'Well done doc..We have a good cardiac rhythm .You have saved her life..Lets move her into the ICU.She's out of danger now' somebody says in background but I'm too shocked to recognise the person.

As I move her into the ICU, I start to understand the gravity of the situation.I realise this was the moment for which I had prepared all my life.This was the ultimate gift given for me,the gift of rescuing my beloved mother from mortal danger.Suddenly I feel relieved.I wipe off beads of sweat formed on my forehead.Finally the moment had arrived,the moment which made me feel fulfilled .A strange calmness descends over me..I have learnt that life is the most valuable thing in the world

I love my job now.. Its never too late to fall in love with your job isn't it?