Inner Light

FICTION

Rahul was eagerly waiting for his father to arrive , a rare occasion one would say as he s a young boy but its diwali time you see, and this day his father would bring a big gift box, full of crackers..packed and sent from sivakasi. He had asked his mother innumerable times when dad will come home and got scolded in the end. But enthusiasm is a like a magic fountain in kids ,never drying up. He looked up thinking of asking once more but decided not to stretch his luck.

Although his parents were wealthy, they weren’t much interested in buying crackers. Rahul had to beg them innumerable times had to throw a tantrum before they agreed to bring crackers home. He had spent last two days imagining how he would light each type of cracker along with his friends this diwali night . His favourite cracker was ‘atom bomb’ promptly named because of the deafening sound it produced. He had planned to bury it in ground and light it so that it could create the explosion effect!

At eight p.m. he heard the sound of dad’s car arriving. He couldn’t control his excitement anymore, he ran to the gates..jumping and giggling. His father stepped out of the car looked at his boy and gave him a big smile and slowly extracted the colorful gift packet. He shouted with joy and took it and ran straight to his room.
The box was beautifully wrapped in colors which he removed once he was in his room. And it contained many a variety of crackers but rahul cotinued searching .. but it wasn’t there..his favourite cracker wasn’t in the box. He was so disappointed. He ran to his mother and cried loudly. Mother was utterly confused by this and asked what was wrong. ‘ I wanted atom bomb mommy it isnt there in gift box’ . Next moment two slaps landed on his cheek. ‘ why do you need such dangerous cracker why cant you enjoy safer ones. No way you are getting that!’

He was so crestfallen he didn’t even want to eat anything that night. His dad too was surprised to see his kid sulk during dinner and asked why. Mother ‘ whatever we give him is not enough , he needs atom bomb it seems..he’ll become a terrorist I feel.’
Next morning, the day before the festival, rahul started walking to his school heads down,sullen faced. His father saw him walk..something happened..he went to his son and gave him 50rs.’go buy it son,whatever you want..’

His joy knew no bounds ..finally he would get his favorite cracker. He couldn’t sit in the classes. His mind was set at the cracker shop nearby. Evening came and bell rang..he rushed out of school eagerly crossing the gully to reach the cracker shop. Then something caught his eyes. Three little children, all in ragged clothes were trying to lit a half burned cracker, hoping that it would light. He stood and thought for sometime. Then rushed to the crackershop and bought few smaller flowerpots and lightersticks and gave it to them. And he watched them light it..he could see the light in their eyes ,and somewhere inside him, a light was lit.

Whose life is it anyway?

FICTION

As usual i got up earlier than everbody.But it was still early dawn i started reminscing about my life..

I dont know who my parents are..i think i was separated when i was very small.I dont remember much of my childhood really..most of it was terrifying..until i was rescued by this guy. He likes to be called as 'boss' . And i dont mind calling him like that. Because he raised me from my vulnerable childhood to this vigorous youth.

Boss will be busy most of the time. He stays out of this house. I stay here most of the time. Somebody should look over house also right? And i dont think i can manage much outside. But i have few talents of my own. Like my hearing is lot better than his and vision too..but still i cant do whatever he's capable of. Like the food he prepares...is there any better food anywhere else?? I think not!

Well i think boss got up. I can hear him getting up from his bed,walking lazily towards bathroom. I looked forward to our morning walk together. I know he'd never change that .

He came out of the door. I greeted him. He acknowledged. He had something hidden behind his back. He showed it to me and threw it right in front of me..

I couldn't control the temptation... I ran quickly towards the toy...A dog can never resist the tempt for a fetch game you see..

The basic question

what do I mean by this title? these are rather simple questions for which there are no easy answers..i always believe complex questions have simple answers where as easy looking questions may need a lifetime to understand and one maynot be able to explain it to others!

Sometimes one might think He knows the solution but, the next day it doesn't look so!these questions define one's quest sometimes..simplicity so, can be great in its own way

coming to my reason for writing this blog, since i was a science student i was thinking about one very interesting concept.what would one get, if one delved too deep into the depths of knowledge of subject?

Lets start with biology. If one went on studying it finally it would lead towards chemical interactions or chemistry.then one had to study chemistry and one day it would lead to interaction between atoms i.e, physics . But the thought process wouldn't stop..if one studied physics in depth he would find mathematics everywhere .then on studying maths deeply he would find out logic inside. And logic is based on our belief of the system of logic. In short; we are ,what we believe..

But now since i focused my efforts on biological science, i find the differences..it isn't so simple to explain biology. Its a mixture of sorts. A biological phenomenon has inside itself, all the other scientific phenomena..its simultaneous.. not serial manifestations.

And when i took medicine as my graduation subject, i chose my basic question, my personal quest..it comes every now and then in my mind ..and as i told before the answer keeps changing or rather ' updating' as i know more about it. I may not get the final solution but i dearly like the search..

The question by the way, is 'what is life?'

Palpable differences

I was just reading gerald durrell's 'my family and animals ' few days back and while reading i couldn't help noticing few facts and differences between his time i.e, early 20th century and ours or 21st century..

In his book he describes the island corfu beautifully..and how minimalistic the life was there.people lead simple lives and were proud of it. There was ample space for each and everyone.They had enough time for spending for their interests.people could sleep for 12hours a day and still do a good job..oppurtunities were everywhere.Education was rare but whatever they learnt,it was direct one to one learning.they learnt what they wanted to learn.

Coming to our times, we can see how much changes have taken place..our lives are so complex, an amalgamation of mechanical and biological comforts. But oppurtunities are becoming rather less as there are more people..now one has to work whole day and night in order to achieve similar success. The word 'rest' &'personal interests' are losing their value..we are defined by our occupations..and our success is measured in amount of money more than anything else.people are thinking of sleep as a folly!and about education everybody learn but most often not what they want but what they have to learn to earn...looks like we have become a result oriented ,money minded ruthless society.

Turned Table

FICTION


Jack was feeling anxious already. He knew it was a mistake to go in place of his
friend to meet a girl as a blind date but he had agreed to do it on a whim, maybe he was too irritated that day, he cursed himself again. He wouldn’t make such promises again, now that he knew how uneasy it felt to do this .

He didn’t wear any fancy clothes, thinking she wouldn’t be much worth it, whoever she is.. ‘must be desperate, otherwise nobody would’ve agreed for a blind date..hope I can escape without talking to her somehow. He absentmindedly scratched his head. Well here I am ,at the restaurant right at the time ,at the right table…hope she wont turn up, I can lie to him anyway later.

Then he saw a beautiful girl entering the restaurant. To his eternal surprise she started walking towards him. He couldn’t take his eyes off her. It was as if things bloomed around her. His heart started beating fast. He had never felt such a rush before. He knew in a moment that she was made for him. It was as if all his fantasies came true. He could think of nothing else for the moment. He noticed he was sweating. She made her way towards him slowly. Came near him and asked , with widened eyes ‘hi ,are you john?’

Jack was in a dilemma. He knew as per his previous idea he had to say yes to that question. But now he was not so sure about it.
He suddenly made a decision. And started talking, oddly his tongue felt dry..he could mumble few words incoherently.

‘Beg you pardon?’ she asked again..now sounding not so sure in her voice
“h…hi listen to me please.. I ‘m jack and I came in place of him ..he had challenged me and I accepted foolishly. Will you please sit with me?? I can explain it better..I don’t want our relationship to begin with a lie so I am telling you the truth. “

She was taken aback for a second and she smiled. what a perfect smile!!
‘ Guess what jack? I also came in place of my friend…never thought it will turn out this way. I liked your way of being truthful . lets talk ‘

As the young couple got immersed in a world of their own, cupid smiled from heaven..he had scored one more trophy ..

way of survival...

Over the last few months , so many things have happened in my life. I had to face so many tough situations. But now as I have faced them successfully, I feel ever more confident in my day today life. I think the challenges have toughened me up , also they have made me more practical, analytical and less emotional. I had always wondered how on the earth some people manage to keep their cool in tense situations, well now I know how……
It’s the previous experience which helps you out. If you had been in a tense situation before and managed to get through it, it will give a certain type of confidence that you’ll some how pull through this situation too..This helps in conquering the fear about the future..I can even say it’s a way of controlling your mind from thinking all the absurd stuff which will prevent you from doing what you are capable of doing. I would like to remember the thought that in life in facing any kind of situation you have two choices, as they say in hindi ‘bhaag lo (run) ya phir bhaag lo “(participate)!!.